V I V H A A N

"Ishu— Ishi jldi karo na kitna late kar rhi"I said while tapping my fingers on my bike's fuel tank. I need to be present at hospital early and here Ishita is getting late.

"Don't call me that. It irritates me" Ishita said with mouth full of paratha and her right hand holding more paratha in roll shape. Well she doesn't likes when someone calls her 'ishu' idk why too. She says it's irritating. That's why I named 'ishi' and everyone calls her that.

"Ye lo tum bhi" Chachi said while coming from behind holding a paratha for me too.

"Chachi ? Mai bike chalate hue kaise khaunga ?" I asked being surprised but she still shoved the paratha in my hands.

"Idk. Just eat it somehow. Jab aaj jaldi Jana tha toh bta dete na, uth ke khana bna deti" Chachi scolded softly and hit my head in playful manner. I laughed at her cute behaviour for me. Just then maa came out and looked at us.

"Maa" I whispered— giving the paratha to ishita and walked towards her and touched her feet. She gave blessings and I stood up straight.

"Ishi ka naam diya h tumne woh bhi papa se Bina puche ? Ab gussa karenge n woh" Maa said sternly. My heart felt heavy at her tone. Before everything broke, I was favourite and best son for them. Just one mistake and everything is broken.

"I'll talk to him maa" I said and without saying anything she turned to the clinic. Our family clinic is attached with our house and papa, chacha and maa perform there. Chachi too sometimes do it.

I turned to Chachi and Ishita who were just standing silently. I somehow managed to smile and sat on bike. Chachi caressed my cheeks and made me look at her.

"Dil par mat lena" She said softly and I smiled at her. I cupped her hands which are on my cheeks. "Shaadi kar lo. Sabka gussa thanda ho jayega" She said.

"Gussa mujhse hai toh, shaadi karne se shant kaise ho jayega ?" I laughed and wore my helmet.

"Ek ladki ki photo bheji h. Tumhare papa ko pasand aagyi h. Aaj mil Lena" She said and my hands froze in helmet. "Zidd chor do Vivhaan. Ye sab karne se woh wapas thori aajayegi ? Aage badho beta. Larki se milo. Woh bhi doctor hai" She said softly.

"Thik h Chachi" I said and smiled at her. Zidd ? Mere pyaar ko yelog kabtak Zidd ka naam denge ? I wore my helmet fully. "Jaldi baitho ishi" I said and she passed my paratha.

I somehow ate while driving— basically Ishita was feeding me from behind. We reached the hospital. I parked the bike hurriedly and walked with her through the entrance.

"Bhaiya?" Ishita spoke and I turned to look at her. I raised my eyebrows to know what happened to her. "Zyda mat sochiyega aur mil lijiyega pichli baar ki tarah kuch natak mat kariyega" She warned softly and went to her ward. I smiled at her words and made my way to my cabin.

The meeting about military team got final and I sighed in relief.  The meeting was long and stressful but it finally ended without any problem.

I wore scrub and my white coat with sthetescope. I made my ways to check on the list of operations at the receptionist table.

"Are you free ?" I heard Aditya's voice and turned to look. He was standing with Anya— who is 6 months pregnant. I nodded at them with a smile and took them to checking ward.

I sat on the chair beside Aditya after checking Anya who is totally fine with the baby. I took the bp machine out.

"Move up your shirt" I said to Aditya who looked at me being annoyed as hell.

"I came for Anya's checkup, Vivhaan" He said with annoyance but I didn't hear him and pulled his sleeves up.

"Doctor ki jarurat tumhe bhi h" I said and set the Bp machine and checked his impulse.

"Hai n ? Mai toh keh rhi thi" Anya said and side eyed Aditya,who just chuckled at her.

"Apko toh bohot kuch lagta h" Aditya said. His tone softening as he spoke to Anya.

"Toh aap meri baat sunte nhi h" She said and looked at the reading. I just smiled at their love.

"Apki hi toh sunta hu bas" Aditya said and shifted in his seat. His gaze fell on me as I was taking much time. "Hogya ?" He scoffed in annoyance.

"Ho gya akdu" I said and bit my tongue as he glared at me. I smiled sheepishly. They both started talking so I made a list of important things Anya will need for upcoming days.

"Sunshine ? You sit here. I am coming after taking the medicine" Aditya said and raised from his seat and pulled me up with him. I looked at him being confused. Without asking anything he pulled me with him— basically dragging.

He stopped at the hall. Less people. I looked at him being confused.

"Chutti le rhe ho tum ?" He asked making his expressions serious. I nodded in agreement. "For 1-2 weeks ? Again for the same thing ?" He asked and his brows thick in concern. Well I can understand him even if he doesn't show much expressions.

"Woh... I need time" I said and gazed down. I took leave as I want to go US. I have been taking leave in this month since 8 years and I know he knows that reason.

"Kabtak past ke peeche bhagte rahoge ?" He asked. I didn't look up. I can't. I bit my lips to swallow the urge to break down.

"Tum bhi zidd bol do mere pyaar— i mean past ko" I said and sighed deeply. I looked up and saw him looking away.

"Maine aisa kabhi bola ? I am just wanting you to move on Vivhaan. I am not blaming or something" He looked at me. His eyes shifted in concern. "Past mein jete rahoge toh khud ko kho doge. Trust me use bhi acha nhi lagega" He said and smiled slightly.

"Hawwwww.....tune smije kiya?" I said and pointed at his face to distract him. His expressions again shifted to annoyance. I laughed at his face and looked away.

"You think you can hide the pain from me ? Intresting" He said and left from there. I stood there for a moment— thinking about his words. Nhi Aditya. Mai nhi chupa rha bas ab dikhane ka man nhi h. I am tired too.

I walked towards them and saw both of them still sitting. Gye nhi ye log ? I sat infront of them.

"Anya ki delivery tu kar rha h" He said directly and I choked on air. Mai ?

"Aditya there are best gynecologist in our hospital" I said to reason him up but he looked away clearly not accepting my request. "I can't do this"

"Maine tumse pucha nhi. Tumhe order diya h" He said and looked at me with his icy eyes. He is doing this on purpose

"And I am denying respectfully. There are—" I was trying to explain but he cut me off.

"I don't trust anyone in my matters" He said with commanding tone. I stared at him being surprised. Why is he doing this ? He knows I don't perform medicine on my close ones.

"You are the one whom I trust Vivhaan. I know what you are thinking but you can't sit forever with that fear" He said like he just read my mind. Anya looking at us being curious. She might not be understanding our exchange.

"Aditya please" I whispered. My heart is already heavy and I honestly don't want to do this. He stared at me like his is reading my mind.

"Alright" He said and got up from the chair. "Anya,let's go" He said to her and both walked off the ward. I rubbed my face, exhausted with everything in this life.

I walked out of the hospital near the cafe to grab some coffee before a tiring operation. Just when I entered the cafe, there some couple arguing— Sanvi stood near the table to take her order maybe. I stood beside her and ordered my coffee. She didn't acknowledge my presence. Her eyes were fixed on the couple.

The girl walked to the counter to pay for herself. The guy too walked behind her looking angry.

"When I am telling you to marry me then why are you rejecting me ?" The guy said with angry tone.

"Ajeeb ho ? Mana kar rhi toh samjh nhi aa rha ? Peeche par gye ho" The girl replied in scary voice. Oh they aren't couple I think. I paid for my coffee just then the guy held the girls hand and started dragging her.

Everyone was just looking at the scene. Well me too. Before i could say something Sanvi threw the water on his face. I looked at her being shocked.

"Samjh nhi ata hai 'no' ka matlab?" She said in angry voice. The girl hid behind her in fear.

"Ye mujhe dhamkiya de rha h" The girl started crying. The guy got angry and grabbed Sanvi's hand.

"Bohot heroine banne ka shauk h ?" He said with a glare. Sanvi laughed at his comment.

"Heroine nhi hu mai. Villian hu. Villian" She said with a maniac laugh. The guy's ego got hurt and he started dragging her out of the cafe. I stood stunned not knowing what to do. I called police and walked behind them.

"Aao tujhe mai india ghumata hu" The guy said and dragged her towards the car. Sanvi in a swift motion detangled herself and took the chair that was out and hit him. I gasped in surprise. The guy fell on the ground.

"Mai tujhe seedha upar ke darshan dikhaungi" She said and again hit him hard with the chair. The police came and I instantly stopped Sanvi from hitting him more. She looked at me with angry eyes but as her eyes met mine— her anger vanished.

"Mar jayega woh" I said and took the chair from her hands. The police wrote the complain from the girl and others. They arrested the guy. The guy glanced at Sanvi— Vicky Singh. MLA's son.

I pulled Sanvi with me and gave my coffee to her. She took it with a smile. She is lucky that the police didn't arrest her.

"Mere liye coffee kharida tumne ? How romantic" She said with a smile and I looked at her being surprised.

"Tumhe pata hai tumne abhi ky kiya hai ?" I asked and stopped walking and stood infront of her.

"Justice" She said with a smiled and took a sip of her coffee.

"Ye india hai. Yaha justice naam ki cheez nhi hoti. Jitna ye sab se dur rhogi, utna safe rahogi" I said to make her understand but she smiled at me.

"Dr Vivhaan. India ho ya italy. Ladkiyon ke sath galt karna kahi sahi nhi likha hua hai" She said and gave back the coffee to me. "Thank you for the coffee" She said and walked ahead. I sighed in annoyance. Hope she won't get in trouble.

I walked behind her. Suddenly she stopped and came back towards me and started walking with me. I raised my eyebrow at her behaviour. She just smiled cheekily.

"Tumhe museum mein rakhna chahiye" I said while shaking my head in amusement and walked ahead.

"Aur tumhe ? Dil mein ?" She said and laughed on her own. I just stared at her. She is really something.

After the scene. I went to do the surgery of 4 hours. It was tiring but I am used to it. After the surgery, i came back to my chair and sat down. I glanced at the clock. It's 2 in the afternoon. After 2 hours I have to go to meet that girl. I rested my head on table and closed my eyes to get some sleep.

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A U T H O R   POV

As Vivhaan was sleeping to get some rest but he heard some payal's noise and his sleep got disrupted. He opened his eyes and saw her— leaning against the door, wearing a black suit.

He raised his head from the table to look at her clearly. She smiled and walked towards him. His heart skipped a beat after seeing her. She sat at the chair beside him.

"Rooh ?" He whispered not believing at her sudden presence.

"Hmm ?" Her voice sweet as honey as she caressed his cheeks. His eyes closed for a second to feel her touch. He opened his eyes and touched her hand which were on his cheeks.

"Rooh ?" He again whispered. His chest tightening at the pressure of something he can't explain. "Tumne mujhe maaf kar diya ?" He said as his eyes flickered at her eyes for forgiveness.

"Maaf ?" She smiled at his words. "Maaf kisko kisko Karu ?" She said with a faint smile. His chest got more heavy. "Apko ? Aditya bhaiya ko ? Apki family ko ? Ya unlogo ko?"

"I love you so much" He said not knowing what to say at her words.

"Move on pls" She said not wanting anything from him.

"Please, I can't" He shoke his head vigorously at her words.

"I can't love you anymore" She whispered.

"Please, I can't live without you" He said slowly as his voice cracked with emotions, the pain he has been hiding from years.

"You will marry other girl" She said and smiled at him with little tears in her eyes. His eyes also started getting teary at her words.

"No, I am waiting for you" He said and bit his lips to control himself but it's not helping because he is already broken alot that nothing can fix him.

"I am no more...." She said and took her hands back from his cheeks.

"But I still love you" He whispered and broke down in tears.

On the other side, Sanvi was standing near the reception to look at the cases so that she can write something in her article. Just then a girl came.

"Can you call Dr Vivhaan ?" She said and Sanvi nodded at her words. She walked to his ward and opened his door, finding him sleeping on the table. She walked towards him and bent down to look at his face.

She smiled at him and took his specs off as it might disturb him in sleep. Just then a tear fell from his eyes which made her uncomfortable. Is he bad dreaming? She thought and shake him to wake him up.

He woke up immediately and looked around to find a figure but it wasn't there. It's been 8 years but still that thought is still in his head that 'He isn't enough'

"Are you ..." Sanvi was saying when Vivhaan cut her off.

"Can you leave ?" He said and looked away. Breathing heavily due to the thing he saw in his dream.

"I...was just—" Sanvi tried to explain but he again cut her off.

"Have some manners. You should knock before coming inside" He said and rubbed his face with his palms to calm himself down. Sanvi stood feeling little sad at his words.

"Vivhaan woh—" Sanvi tried again as she never saw him talking like this before. But Aditya's voice cut her off.

"Sanvi leave" Aditya said and walked inside. She looked at him and nodded. She walked out of the ward.

Aditya sat on the chair beside him. Vivhaan was still looking away. Aditya sensed that something is off so he didn't say anything and sat with him silence.

"Aditya..." Vivhaan whispered controlling his emotions.

"She might be proud of you" Aditya said as he knows Vivhaan well that what can make him vulnerable like this. Vivhaan closed eyes as Aditya's words hit him. "You can share it with me" Aditya said and Vivhaan hugged him without saying anything.

His tears flowed and he wasn't able to control it. Aditya got stilled at the sudden hug. But he understood, Vivhaan needs it so he let him hug him and patted his back.

"Maine maar diya usse...." Vivhaan said between his hiccups. The weight of the past in his chest is too much to bear and he doesn't have anyone who can understand him without judging— except Aditya.

"Tumne kuch nhi kiya hai Vivhaan" Aditya said and patted his back slowly to console him. Vivhaan pulled away to look at him with his teary eyes.

"Kuch nhi kiya ? Mere ankhon ke samne usne...." Vivhaan was saying and Aditya pulled him in hug.

"Shh.....don't talk. I don't like talking too much" Aditya said to make him shut up. Vivhaan pulled away dramatically and glared at him.

"Aise chup karate hai ?" Vivhaan said with a glare to which Aditya chuckled.

"Chup hone bola Maine ? Ro baith ke" Aditya said with annoyance and looked away.

"Hn hn....chup hone bola Maine" Vivhaan mocked Aditya's words and looked away. Both got silent. None of them speaking. After a long break Aditya spoke.

"Why don't you share this to someone?" Aditya asked and Vivhaan looked at him

"Kisko bataunga ?" Vivhaan laughed at Aditya's words.

"Ishi ko bol ke dekho. I am not good at words. I can't console you...." Aditya said in low voice. Vivhaan smiled at him.

"Trust me. Mujhe isme hi sukoon milta hai. You understand me and that's all I need" Vivhaan said with a small smile. Aditya looked at him and sighed deeply not knowing what he could say now.

"Kyu aye the tum ?" Vivhaan asked as Aditya rarely visits hospital. Either it's for Anya or family.

"This— your leave letter. Don't send it to director. Just tell him that I gave you the leave. He doesn't need to say anything in that" Aditya said and passed a paper to Vivhaan. Vivhaan took the paper with a big smile. As Aditya is the boss, the director can't say anything to Vivhaan and he is happy for that.

"Thanks ..." Vivhaan whispered while controlling himself from the happiness.

"Jyda udna mat" Aditya said and stood up from the chair and walked towards the door. Vivhaan chuckled at Aditya's words.

"Ab baithe rahoge ya chalna hai ?" Aditya said as he stopped at the door. Vivhaan knows Aditya doesn't want to leave him alone after the emotional turmoil. Vivhaan walked towards him as he knows Aditya will be Aditya, he won't change but he will care under this grumpy behaviour for everyone.